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three weeks ago [Sunday October 18th 11:23pm] "i just tried to kill la black widow, the second in a week, that was dwelling in a crevice between the fence and my back door. she fled. i killed her egg basket. she's after me now. and then after, i read about her, and she's not so bad real respectable actually and then I listened to a Cri-Cri song I used to listen to when I was little called "Che Arana" and now I'm wondering where she is and if she's in mourning." i let her live. Red light x green light

[Saturday September 26th 11:36am] i just tried to kill la black widow, the second in a week, that was dwelling in a crevice between the fence and my back door. she fled. i killed her egg basket. she's after me now. and then after, i read about her, and she's not so bad real respectable actually and then I listened to a Cri-Cri song I used to listen to when I was little called "Che Arana" and now I'm wondering where she is and if she's in mourning Red light

[Sunday September 13th 12:43pm] I've always wanted for you what you've wanted for yourself and yet I wanted to save us high water or hell and I kept on ignoring the ambivalence you felt and in the meantime I lost myself in the meantime I lost myself I'm sorry I lost myself I am. Red light

i am so inspired [Tuesday September 8th 2:42am] i want to get StumbleUpon.com tattooed across my chest and all over the rest of my body will be everything it has taken me to so far. There won't be an inch left of me. You will have to clone me again and again so that more of it fits. I'm sorry. I'm overwhelmed and my brain is pleasantly on fire. Red light

[Tuesday September 8th 2:03am] Red light

[Sunday September 6th 6:06pm] my friends liberate me. it feels incredible. Red light

Alx Bacca-- [Thursday August 27th 9:37am] Probably because I saw Shmi a couple days ago and his friend "Bobster"(?) and they were like somethin'-somethin'-Trinket and thus the following-- I drove down to Mexico with my family but there was only one place to stay. It was a house with a couple of twin sisters and a brother. One of the sisters was possessed, as a lot of things or people have been in my dreams lately, and we eventually had to make sure she died because she just wouldn't and would keep trying to kill us. I think in the dream I WAS the other sister but I can't be sure. After this fiasco happened I decided not to stay in this house anymore because of the bad vibrations emanating. After I left the house I drove down to South Mexico where I found Alx in LA. Alx, you invited me to stay with you in the same place I had once dreamt you and Jamaica living. A hole in the wall with a literal hole in the wall inside it that led up to more rooms that would get progressively smaller until the hall had ended. This place was familiar to me so I felt comfortable here. You lived with a boyfriend who you didn't hate but you didn't love but he was still very important in your life because he was a link between you and a world you were completely immersed in at one point and you didn't want to lose that connection. So you remained. I showed up on a day that you had to go work and I went with you. You worked at a Costco-type place and I had to tag along with you while you would go around and take stock, etc. After a while I got bored so I went looking around and found these AMAZING shoes that probably don't exist in real life but they were a lot like the brown vans I have but yellow with brown and gray. Now that I think about it they don't seem so amazing but in the dream I loved. I put the shoes on and made a decision to leave them on even if that meant not paying for them. When you found me you were like where'd you get those shoes and I told you and you were for the most part okay with my taking them but somewhat leery because you were afraid you were gonna get fired. So after taking a couple of other TRINKETS from the store, which you also partook in, we headed out when your shift was over. We turn the left corner of the building after hearing something click in the sensors when we were exiting the doors and all of a sudden we were a loud speaker telling everybody in the area to keep an eye out for Alxandra Bacca and her accomplice! And for some reason they told everybody my name was Stanley. So we sit down at the end of the building with a bunch of other bums and try to look as bum-ish as possible which isn't hard because we already kindof do. I pull my hair up into a tiny tim hat and people pass by every now and then and say "Stanley! Stanley?" and I have to ignore them completely because they'd catch us if I didn't. Eventually we hauled ass outta there and went back to your Apt where we found your boyfriend and he tried to hide us by throwing a party for you and Stanley. the cops drove by during the party and confiscated everything out in the open and you were like we gotta go we gotta go so we left. there's a little more to that scene than that but it's hard to put into words. somehow we get back to the US within like 5 minutes and I have to go to work. for some reason my work here consists of trying to keep some first graders in line and i'm wearing my st. anne's uniform. we have them sit on a bench and then i sit on the bench and the director (my boss) scolds me for wearing such a short skirt which isn't even short. she embarrasses me in front of everyone and makes me go home to change. i just go to my car and put on some pants that i stole from your work instead. after that some girl i know tries to sell me weed while i'm sitting the car changing. that's pretty much the end. anyway, happy trails! Red light x green light

[Thursday August 20th 11:29pm] i need to grow up and eat grown up food. Red light x green light

[Sunday August 9th 1:58pm] Old people on Facebook are hilarious. "Thanks for inviting me to be your "friend" - I'm delighted to do so. Marci" Clean Room or BUST. Bust sounds like a lot less work.. Red light x green light

the test, and opera, is in the morning [Monday July 27th 11:09am] ( read the lines as mountains ) Red light

crimson waaaave [Thursday July 16th 11:03am] today is the day my sister became a woman. let the walls shed! Red light x green light

[Saturday July 4th 1:53pm] "how you gon' win when you ain't right within?" more to it. Red light

alanis always puts it best [Friday July 3rd 9:37pm] so unsexy. Oh these little rejections how they add up quickly One small sideways look and I feel so ungood Somewhere along the way I think I gave you the power to make Me feel the way I thought only my father could Oh these little rejections how they seem so real to me One forgotten birthday I'm all but cooked How these little abandonments seem to sting so easily I'm 13 again am I 13 for good? I can feel so unsexy for someone so beautiful So unloved for someone so fine I can feel so boring for someone so interesting So ignorant for someone of sound mind Oh these little protections how they fail to serve me One forgotten phone call and I'm deflated Oh these little defenses how they fail to comfort me Your hand pulling away and I'm devastated When will you stop leaving baby? When will I stop deserting baby? When will I start staying with myself? Oh these little projections how they keep springing from me I jump my ship as I take it personally Oh these little rejections how they disappear quickly The moment I decide not to abandon me Red light

running off the plank [Thursday July 2nd 1:35am] 1. abandonment 2. abandonment 3. abandonment 4. abandonment 5. abandonment Red light

[Sunday June 21st 8:00pm] i can learn nothing from my parents except who i don't want to be every time my dad comes i am instantly depressed because it just reminds me of how pathetic this whole situation is and then my mom calls me the most immature person in the family what "family"? and i have to move back into this fucking hell hole? god help me. please. Red light x green light

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