ode to the day
i spent the majority of the day stressing out on the edge of my seat. mostly standing actually. i thought i was going to get fired; i wasn't even close. she just wanted to remind me to wipe down the tables before i left. i freaked and lost my appetite until recently.

alex reminded me that my reaction was in my control. it was up to me to transcend and let things be. yet "i need to talk to you" sounded so incredibly threatening so early, my reaction isn't too surprising.
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i left my class after half hour because Mary's DONE teaching and is just giving us busy work to finish off the semester. she made us stand out in the cold for the first half hour. so i left and hung out with some of the Perez sisters in Santa Ana. I don't regret it.
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My boyfriend sent me a text today. "Te adoro." I'm grateful for him.
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The sooner i go to skeep, the sooner i can get tackled by three-year-olds in the morning. A lovely day it will be. But not lovelier than the sixth on which I will get paid, and have money for MASELF and not rent/food.

more to write, too tired.